Writing Is Personal

7:06 PM


*shudders at the thought of emotions* 


Yeah, maybe we'll have a bit of a serious talk today? *shrugs* 

I've been thinking about what I love about writing lately. There's lots of reasons, obviously, because I'm a bit of a masochist. There's the rush of putting together words into sentences that I might even like. There's characters to fall in love with and plots to discover. Flailing with writer friends is a big bonus. But the part of writing I don't think about a lot is that it comes from the heart; it makes me take experiences and emotions that I might not want to share with a stranger on the street and pour them out into something. When I'm writing, I can take those feelings and use them to create something that talks better than I ever could. It's a unique way of processing emotions and learning about myself and the world around me, and sharing those thoughts with others. 
sameeeee honestly. 
That's scary, you guys. But it's made my writing so much better.

Every novel I've written recently has taken something out of me. Pariah makes me dig deep to figure out the very worst parts of me (and some of the best?) so I can explore how I would work through things. Havard goes into my mental illness and is basically therapy in that area. Crimson Gods let me release a lot of frustration and current feelings. WCAV is more on the warm-fuzzy positive side of things, but it has things to say about friendship and puns and Doctor Who references and such. 

Every single one of these novels has taught me something important and helped me figure out my own emotions by exploring them through another character. 

It's terrifying, but it's worth it

I had to get to the point where I could do that. I had to be able to look at what I was feeling, and then get used to putting words like that on the page/word document/whatever. I had to figure out how to be vulnerable with myself and see some of my own feelings in my own characters on my own laptop -- that's weird. 

So yeah, I'd recommend it, but it's not necessarily fun

Last year was the year of learning how to do that. This year is the year of really doing it, I guess. It makes my characters, writing, and story stronger, once I figure out how to break down my own walls (I have a heart of stone) and get to work. 

*angsts because emotions* 

32 comments

  1. This. Yes. Thank you. I've been struggling with creating an internal conflict in a story I'm plotting, and now I know exactly what I can do.

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  2. Honestly, one of the biggest reasons I write is /because/ it helps me work through those emotions, getting them out on paper, laying them out in a logical, orderly way so I can look at them and go, "Ummm-- okay. This isn't such a big deal after all. I can do this." It's not so hard for me to write about my emotions (because I'm a kinda emotional person in the first place *nervous laugh*).

    BUT, because I DO put so much of what I'm feeling and struggling with and confused about into my stories, I'm kinda terrified to let other people see them. Letting people read my work is the worst thing ever, because I'm scared they'll be like, "Ew, you're disgustingly angsty and, are you even serious? Why are you making a deal out of stuff like this?" And now that I'm actually trying to get my work out there for people to read, I find myself letting that fear get the best of me and I /don't/ write about the icky stuff I really /need/ to write about and-- yeah. I need to be brave enough to just put it all out there.

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    1. Sameeee. Just keep on writing -- you'll get it!

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  3. this is so true. writing is so hard because it means being super vulnerable and its terrifying. the last novel I wrote, Forlorn Hope, was super hard for me to write in ways I did not anticipate. It was really hard to be honest because I found the main character was me. like, we were the same. and its hard to show that to the world. but it helped me heal. getting words out on the page helps me learn about myself. It always has. each novel I start I ask myself "how is this going to change me?" because it always does.

    I love this post. its so true. I relate. 10/10.
    I love you for writing this too. keep writing about those hard things that are scary and, sometimes, angsty. you rock!

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    1. I know the feeling of a novel being hard to write. I've gone through some of my toughest moments and toughest novels that way.

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  4. EXACTLY. I have to constantly remind myself to write the stories I care deeply for--it's so much scarier, because there's so much more to lose, but in the end it's worth it :)

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    1. It's definitely worth it -- we've got this! :)

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  5. I have a hard time understanding my emotions on my own. I have a hard time vocalizing them too. I didn't understand how to understand them until I discovered how to write. like seriously write. the emotions make more sense on the page...which is probably why I relate to characters and written words more than most people. writing became my form of therapy...and I don't know what I'd do without it. it releases inner tension and confusion...even if I don't resolve the emotions, getting them out feels just as good. writing is the best, to put it plainly. even though it's hard sometimes.

    love this post! <3

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    1. YESSS. Obviously, I feel exactly the same way.

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  6. Goodness, this is so true. It hurts a lot more to write about yourself and your feelings and your perspectives because it's so personal, but it also makes your writing so much more real. You aren't just making up emotions and experiences, you're writing about them and people can relate to that, or at least tell that the writing is honest. Plus, it's good therapy :) Thanks for sharing!

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  7. I think all my writing is therapy for me, I love that I get to work through everything, without any judging.

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  8. *nods* I relate to this post. All my books are an effort to fully express what I'm feeling because with me, it's less figuring out what I'm feeling and more communicating it properly. But yes, I balk at the idea of having emotions as well.

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  9. You just summed up exactly my thoughts on this. Writing allows you to do something, to make a work of art, with those emotions. And honestly I think that's beautiful. That you can channel anything; anger, fear, pain, sadness - and write something beautiful and human and amazing and just yes. .-.

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    1. Yesssss. *flails because those feelings man*

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  10. I JUST HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS!

    I love this post. It's so very true. Writing teaches you so much about yourself. Someone once said, "a man has a thousand thoughts he doesn't know until he picks up a pen." (That's a paraphrase, but yeah.)

    I think my novel has given me strength. By putting my MC in horrible situations, I'm forced to consider how I'd react, and her strength in the face of trouble shows me that I, too, can overcome.

    PS Thank you for all your comments on Ink, Inc.! I was sorta vaguely aware of your blog before but now I've visited it a few times and followed! I hope this is the start of a Les Mis-fuelled friendship :)

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    1. Les Mis friendships are the BEST friendships. *high fives*

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  11. Writing is very personal. If it isn't, then you're not doing itright.

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  12. This is so perfect. I think it applies to most any art form, not just writing. That's the amazing thing about art.

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    1. I've been dabbling in other sorts of art lately, and that's definitely true.

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  13. Aimee,
    Hey, I am Mary. I am blogger at the blog called Ravens and Writing Desk.
    The blog has been down lately, as in no one has been posting on it in a long time, but I am now trying to get it back up and running. And I thought there would be no better way to do this than ask someone to guest post for us. So I was wandering if you would be interested in doing a guest post. If so please email us at ravensandwriting(at)gmail(dot)come

    Our blog address is htpp://ravensandwriting.blogspot.com

    Thanks!

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    1. I'll look into it and get back to you soon :)

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  14. This is so true! I was writing a short piece the other day, and when I wrote it I was just writing whatever sounded poetic and deep (I was writing more off instinct). I read over it a while later, and I realized it was about me and taught me things about me that I never knew or realized before. It's definitely interesting, and also can be pretty scary!

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    1. Ooh, that's always interesting. And scary, like you said. Writing is weird that way o.0

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  15. ^glitch. >.>

    I've basically come to the point where I have to allow myself to have certain emotions, but to remember also that they aren't necessarily me - feel the pain that waves over you unprecedentedly, remember it's not actually depression, just some sort of roundabout-inspiration. Then I vomit it out onto a page in the best writing I can give it, breathe, and move on.

    And that's pretty much how all my best work happens, which sounds scary, but after reading this post I can see I'm not the only one. Emotions are tough, but they make for fantastic stories. And sometimes when my friends wonder why I suddenly stop talking, the best know now from experience that I'm just thinking, and to let me be until it passes. It's being a writer - it's what we do.

    Basically, nicely done. :)

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    1. "Emotions are tough, but they make for fantastic stories." Amen.

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  16. Oh, I SO agree with this. I mean, I'm not a proper writer, but during NaNo I found myself subconsciously writing all about MY emotions, and MY experiences... My MC is a lonely, bullied, scarred, abandoned girl - basically a person made up of all the things inside me!
    Beth x
    www.thequietpeople.com

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  17. *belatedly reading this post* xD

    This is so accurate. ^_^ I think I came to understand this for myself last year. The novel I wrote a couple years ago was... eh, not birthed out of a place of passion, and it just kind of... sucked. xD I gave up the project after finishing the crummy first draft.

    But THEN, I started writing a project I WAS passionate about: a dark, epic fantasy that dealt with many of my own emotions, angst, and struggles at the time. Not only have I enjoyed writing that fantasy book more, but I think the quality is much improved. :) BUT OMG how much more scary it is to share it now!! :O :O Before... I was just sharing a story. Now I'm sharing my heart.

    Thank you for writing this, Aimee! I think we're all with you here!!

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