So How is Camp Going? // The Story I Want To Write12:34 PM
No one asked, but I'm going to talk about my Camp NaNoWriMo progress anyway.
|because it fits the feel of the novel well, okay?|
|actual footage of me this month|
Cue a Winter-Soldier-type plot and lots of angst.
Why is this novel so important to me, you ask? Allow me to explain to you a thing. (a it's awesome, (b my main character Havard is insecure and shares my severe anxiety, (c related to that it's a chance for me to talk about mental illness in a setting that's not contemporary and focused on said mental illness, and (d Norway is incredibly gorgeous and the best place to set a story.
|LOOK AT THIS PLACE IT IS INCREDIBLE.|
Did you not ask for snippets? You're getting them anyway.
|my poor socially anxious baby, i love him. i also hurt him. #sorrynotsorry|
|Johannes Snare is the sassiest child ever, protect him. (also. DRAMA.)|
|in which media people are jerks and my poor baby havard is turned into a victim unnecessarily.|
|dun dun dun, DRAMATIC EXPERIMENTS. (aka "aimee complains about medical stuff that scares her")|
|Saija is the best, and also kind of my hero. I love her endlessly.|
The thing about this story is...it's important to me, like I said. Incredibly so. It may be sci-fi, but in a way it's the most personal thing I've ever written. I have a lot to say about anxiety and depression and mental illness in general and overcoming things. That's a tall order. I mean, what if I don't express myself in the way I want to express myself? What if in trying to be personal, it just falls flat? What if it's never the thing I need it to be, no matter how hard I try? What if no one else appreciates it, what if it doesn't mean anything? Novels should be personal. Incredibly personal novels are often the best. But they come with a lot of extra baggage, too.
This draft isn't the story I want to tell with these characters. It's closer than the first draft, but it's not there yet. And that's frustrating. I know what I want it to be, what it needs to be to be successful. I just...haven't figured out what that means for this one yet.
|me, trying to figure this out.|
Are you doing Camp NaNo this month? How is that going for you?