january // let's keep going.7:00 AM
The first wrap-up of the year. Let's do this.
Well, y'all, we made it. The first month of 2017 is over and behind us. Take a deep breath, step away from the screen,
But we made it and we're still here so that's cool too.
|because #inspiration and i just really like this for some reason. // source|
It's been a weird month. The weather is gross, the sky is grey, lots of change and new things both good and bad and things shifting and plans for the future and motivation and work and procrastination all at once. I didn't launch straight into being an ultra-productive hustler who makes the most of every moment, and I made a lot of mistakes and freaked out a lot and made a lot of messes, but...I don't loathe myself for it. I'm figuring things out. I'm playing around. Little by little, I'm putting things together and figuring out what works for me and how I'm going to go about things. I have lots of plans and I'm working to make them a reality.
I'm scared and messy and not always successful and I guess that's okay. I can only go up from here.
probably. don't test me on that.
I THINK I DID PRETTY OKAY. I only missed a post or two, which is a miracle because this was a crazy month, and I think I'm getting closer to blogging about the things I want to blog about and finding what I'm trying to say. I'm finding my own little niche and exploring different blogs and having fun, at least. Allll the things.
I talked about my plans for this upcoming year. So many things. So many ideas. *collapses*
Rogue One: A Star Wars Story smashed me into a thousand million pieces and I felt like I had to talk about it.
I presented you losers with a foolproof guide to being as productive as me. Completely foolproof and healthy, I promise you.
Katie Grace guest posted! She is one of my bestest frens and an amazing creative human, so it was a delight to have her. especially since we wrote our guest posts the night before they went out and did it in a caffeine-fueled haze. shhh.
making an aesthetic pinterest board for your novel // an opinion about opinions // life is fleeting // a truly beautiful piece of storytelling by ely // a list of beautiful happy things
I've also been continuing my weekly blogging on Youer Than You, and I have to say, I'm enjoying that quite a lot. They seem to tolerate posting my many words, so that's good at least. If you've ever wanted more of a lifestyle type post from me, you should check out the site. It's a great thing and sometimes I talk about how to study like a real person. Win-win.
Some -- Beauty Queens, These Shallow Graves, Storm Siren -- I couldn't get through. I just...didn't care, so I stopped. *shrugs* Others -- True Allegiance, Metaltown, Stalking Jack the Ripper -- were decent, but didn't grip me, which is always sad. HEARTLESS IS NOT A NAME FOR ME AFTER READING THAT BOOK BECAUSE MY CHEST HURT VERY MUCH AND I ADORED IT. (Marissa Meyer slays every time, I swear.) My Lady Jane made me laugh and smile and filled my heart with joy that my morbid self didn't even mind. Vassa in the Night was weird and incredible and I don't even know.
Obviously, I've been re-reading Lemony Snicket for the first time in years. I did some in preparation for the Netflix show (more on that beauty later) and wrote all up in my copies, of which I now own a complete hardcore set. Be jealous. Snicket deserves his own post because I have so many feelings, so be looking out for that. A Series of Unfortunate Events impacts me way too much.
So. Many. Weird. Books. (both good and bad.)
I finished read-throughs of Pariah. #mychild
I printed it out and put it in a glorious binder and wrote in it and crossed things out and had a glorious time scribbling in it and falling in love with my steampunk baby all over again, and...some of it sucks. But most of it doesn't, this draft, which is a weird feeling. Slowly but surely it's becoming the story I never knew it could be, and it's growing, and I'm perfectly happy to go along with that. Something tells me this upcoming draft will be an important and final-for-now sort of one, one that could lead to pursuing allll the interesting next steps, so there's that.
But shhh. More on that later. Needless to say, lots of Pariah work as always. I'll get there. Other than that, I've been entertaining all the story ideas -- an upsetting faceswapping dystopia and a dieselpunk magical WWI sort of story in particular -- and brainstorming how to get back at Havard in full force without being stumped and going about it all wrong. (On that front I think I'm working that out, so it'll be back in full force in February.
Podcast things are happening too. Be on the lookout for that.
|i'm suffering, send help.|
Falling Skies with the Katie Fren! Will never be over my cheesy alien apocalypse show about humanity. It makes me cry and I want to share it with everyone because true frenship is exposing your fren to eye-bugs and alien surgeries and stressful apocalypse moments, obviously.
never be friends with me.
A Series of Unfortunate Events Again, I'm planning a blog post specifically for this, but needless to say I devoured all of it in a week and it was everything I've ever wanted. So lovely. So morbid, a word which here means, "perfectly suited to Aimee's fiction needs and preferences."
X-Files slowly but surely. I have fallen in love with my fluffy FBI agent children. Send help immediately, except don't, because I am a sucker for aliens.
Bones, my favorite crime show of all the crime shows, has returned for its last season and I am enjoying all the feelings and all the shenanigans of gore and skeletons and my science nerd faves.
To so much nonsense.
IN THE HEIGHTS (BROADWAY) // WILD WORLD (BASTILLE) // ATLAS: YEAR ONE (SLEEPING AT LAST)
What even is life at this point.
School is a thing that's happening. Or, should be happening more than it actually is. Still learning how to balance a schedule. #homeschoolproblems
Work is definitely happening. So much work. Gotta earn that dough to support my artistic career, I guess.
I went to the art museum this month! (This past weekend, actually.) It was lovely and I am too enthusiastic about modern art, I'm sorry.
that's an upcoming post too but shhhh you didn't hear it here.
Working on podcast things. It's very scary, because this is a legit thing I want to produce and I want to produce well, so I'm actually going to have to pull people into this and make it happen. IT WILL HAPPEN. I just have to get over things.
I painted my room! It's now blue and beautiful and possibly was not worth the agony that is painting. But here we are and now I can have posters again.
the truth is out thereeee // it's been a weird week and a horrible past few days. the sky is grey. there's a fog in my head, and my chest hurts, and it's overwhelming, sometimes, everything we carry around and all the stuff that lives in our heads. everything was in disarray and my head has been too. but now my room is sky-blue, even if painting sucks. now i have cool posters/art. and we will be okay, we will be okay, we will be okay.
It's been a rough month, honestly. Balancing things, mental health (sigh), all that good stuff. But I'm still here, and at the same time, it's been a great month, so that's confusing. I've gotten lots of things done and broken down and been caught in a whirlwind of what even but hey, that's just life. I'll take it a day at a time or sometimes a minute at a time, thanks. We got this. Probably.
Podcast things. Two whole episodes are now finished and it's a February priority, so...mwhaha.
Y'all will hear more about Havard! My lovely Scandinavian dystopia/sci-fi/what-even child that I'm figuring out piece by piece.
PERHAPS I will post some of my actual fiction writing online for peeps to read. Perhaps. If you're lucky. You might get to experience some soon. Keep an eye out. Or don't. It's really up to you.
More productivity. More self-care. Can the two coexist or will one kill the other? We'll find out.
We'll find out lots of things in the month to come. But whatever happens, we'll keep on going on. THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE FRENS LET'S GO SEEK IT.
what did you do this month? do you have any show recommendations for me now that i have netflix and can drown my sorrows in shows? how much do you hate snow? hit me up with all the details.